My [late] first post…
The following is my first post when i first got to Puerto Viejo three weeks ago. I understand its taken me a while to post but thats what happens when you’re in the jungle! An updated post is coming soon….
Tuesday, May 20, 2014 9:39pm
Only a day and it feels like I’ve been here a year. Today I realized why I am here. Why God told me to come here. I mean I knew before I came here right. I knew I needed to heal my body but today I realized it’s so much deeper than that. I spent almost $400 on my hair before I left and I’ve had it up the whole time; I spend about $900 in clothes before I left and it doesn’t matter how cute it is, its still soaked in sweat within an hour of putting it on. I brought all these cute stylish sandals to wear but they all hurt my feet and I had to buy a pair of ugly boy sandals from the local store but they feel great on my feet. I brought makeup but I can’t put it on because the sweat won’t stop streaming down my face. I brought jewelry I haven’t been able to wear because anything other than cold water touching my skin makes me itch or sweat. Since I’ve been here I’ve been thirsty for only water. I have no desire to eat meat or drink dairy. Today I had two headaches one in the morning and one at night yes probably due to transition but I keep thinking of when I had a migraine for my first month at USF because I was bombarded with new and enlightening information my mind was on overload. Today’s headaches felt the same. I am being bombarded with enlightening truths about what is really going on with me and why I am here. I love lists so this is what I know:
1. I have a gift. Part of the reason I am here is to strengthen my God given [possibly psychic] abilities. What exactly my gift is I’m not sure yet. Rachel says she forgets i just got here because when she sees me she already sees the curandera in me.
2. I am here to heal my mind (after I wrote this sentence I began to weep). My mind is my own internal toxin that’s trying to kill me. My mind has given into all the negative messages fed to me my whole life and now I am in the place (and at the right time) to finally submit to messages of love. I am worthy.
3. I am here to heal my body. Today I learned so much about herbs and plants in the garden tour but I didn’t write anything down because I wanted to soak it all in the first time around. I learned about what plants, herbs and tonics could cure various illnesses that in the U.S. we pay millions for on hospital bills and medication. I got so angry at moments thinking of my family going broke to pay for pharmaceuticals that don’t work like these plants can work. Raquel showed us the Noni plant, which can cure cancer. It is scientifically proven to cure cancer and the U.S. is still doing marathons to pay for research to cure cancer. It’s a fucking lie and all I thought of was my cousin who had cancer at one year old could have used this plant and wouldn’t have had to deal with the permanent affects of chemotherapy. I learned that the lining of our stomachs is so intensely lined with GMOs we can’t even process the good things going into our bodies. I’m preaching now so I’ll stop but my point is that I spent so much money on how I look on the outside for this trip (and my life in Chicago) I didn’t prepare myself for the real work to be done inside. Like I said, only a day and it feels like it’s been a year.
Here are a few snapshots i took in the beginning. I’ll post a full album on my Facebook. L@s quiero y l@s extraño mucho! Pura Vida! xoxo